Tough times

Well... I had a date today. Went well I guess, he was very nice and all. But I don't know... I didn't feel anything. As I've mentioned before, the "click" is very important to me. And it just wasn't there. And we didn't have so much to talk about. Which is weird cuz i always talk a lot. Maybe my mind was elsewhere, cuz these last few days it's someone else who has been on my mind. It's not so that I "like" him in that way, but he makes me happy, I feel good and comfortable while talking to him. But also the fact that while my date and I were drinking tea in his kitchen I got a text from my ex. It's been a while since he and I talked, and he asked me to log in on msn. But of course I couldn't at the time... Hopefully I'll be able to talk to him in the next few days, cuz I really miss him. We've shared some great years and it doesn't matter how much I tell myself that I'm ready to see someone else. In a way, he still has a very special place in my heart. Even if he'll always be there, then there's this part where I have to be able to completley let go, cuz otherwise I don't think I could fall in love again. A crush? Sure. Always. I get plenty of those. But love... It's not as easy. I have a lot in my head that I need to deal with but I also want to say that I always go to bed happy. Yin, Malin, Attila, Vitor and Robin, thanks for making me smile so much. You've all been a great help these last couple of days! Hopefully I'll be able to pay it back to all of you, and not just a few.