Tears for you baby

Have been trying to sleep for little over an hour now. I don't know what to do with my life now, what direction to take, what choises to make. I'm tired of feeling like I have no real purpose here. I feel... unecessary...

So I'm sitting here crying, cuz when I had you baby, all choises just seemed so much easier. You were the center of my life, and everything I decided to do had to work out with your needs and such. Ludde baby, I really wish I had you here with me... It's so empty without you.

I know it was your time to leave this life, but I still feel like you left me to soon. I miss to grab hold of your fluffy ears and give you a big kiss on your forehead, I miss your cute little snores at night and I miss the way you looked at me when I tried to "steal" one of your toys. Life just isn't the same without you. I grew up with you, I can barely remember how it was before you came into my life.

.... I should be sleeping, I know.... the memories... the happiness.... the love.... I miss you baby.... I just wish I could hold you one more time and tell you how much I love you...