Tired of this kind of feelings

I wonder where this feeling comes from. The day started of great really. But now - I'm just... bah... Surounded by "suckiness" or something... Kinda feel like just going to bed... Had some thoughts coming over me, thoughts I haven't had in over 3 years. Well, maybe not thoughts, but feelings. A sort of mixture of anger, disapointment and sadness. Shit... Came to think of my ex Kimo, and the way he (unintentionally) tried to decide who could be my friend and he could get pissed of at me for the smallest thing. Something that was just normal to me looked like cheating in his eyes. F*ck... These feelings just flooded me right now. I just don't want to go through that again. His jealousy was just... over the edge. Some jealousy is just normal, I feel it too. But to act it out on maximum setting.. I can't bare that. My heart relies on trust. Without that, there's nothing.

And another thing.. yesterday... a friend told some people I'm not single. Am I not? That's more than I know... I'm so confused! It's just too much going on right now... I really need a job so I can have other things to think about than all this..

Now I'm gonna check out how crysis look on this new pc and then I'll snuggle up in bed with some cookies and watch tv. Then we'll see what the evening has in store for me....