Lost my motivation

Had so much motivaion last night, and earlier today, and now right before I was supposed to start I lost it. I feel like I failed already... But okay, I can't fail if I didn't start yet right? So my motivation must still be in there somewhere, probably behind some old hidden emotions. Emotions that's I've had since 5th grade. But okay, f*ck the motivation, I'm gonna start anyway. Maybe that's the easiest way to find it.