While others sleep, I kill zombies

Well yeah... at least tonight I am xD Cuz Krusty and I are gonna play L4D2!

And for the record I'll also mention that the jigsaw i've been working on isn't NY at all! Hahaha I just realised that the statue of liberty is very small xD Also I realised that they have a rollercoaster like the one in Las Vegas. So... hahaha xD Do I need to say anymore?

The power of words

Sometimes I guess I shouldn't say the things I say. But when is sometimes? Usually I'm pretty good at using the right words in the right situation. Either way, I hope that you can forgive me cuz you really mean a lot to me. And I know that you'll be reading this...

People always ask me how they should say things, I give them an answer and they tell me "oh, that's great!". But I can't put the words into my own mouth. I'm just gonna be thinking this over and over agian so I might as well just say it.

Late night smiling

It's gonna be a nice night for sure. I'll be watching TAPS with Reaper so how could it not be a great night? Hehe. He has this way of always making me smile, and he says I do the same for him. I'm happy I do, cuz I like making my friends happy.

By the way I was supposed to go to my niece's birthday party today, but since my father got sick I'll see if I can get in touch with my sister tomorrow so I atleast can hand over the presents. I guess I can do it at the same time I'm goning into town to see a friend. Otherwise, tomorrow will be all fun and games! Well, all day will be that... but now I was refering more to the game part. Reaper sent me some more games today so in a day or two maybe some of them has finished downloading.

Well, I'll return to my popcorn now. Peace!

I guess I have to admit it

As the title says, I guess I have to admit it. At least to myself. I spent last night figuring out some new feelings I've descovered that I have. It was kind of unexpected cuz I so didn't plan this. Maybe you can guess what I refer too? Unless, I'll keep it to myself for now. Who to tell? I guess I better be damn sure first.

Anyway I've had a nice day, I've seen all of my best friends so I'm quite happy about that. But also I'm tired since I didn't sleep much. Well that's it for today. Over and out!

You and me in harmony

I feel happy today, even more happy than usual. Maybe it's because I finished that test yesterday? Well, either way, I'm really in the mood to sing today. And I want to sing Disney songs!!! Haha, so what am I doing here then? I'm of to sing now! Maybe I'll start with the song which I used as a title for this entry?

Set them free!

It's pretty late now and I've been working on my math all day. Boring, but it has to be done. Anyway, out of the blue I came to think of the dream I had tonight. I didn't remember it earlier today so I have no idea why it popped up in my head now. So... What I dreamt was that my house (which was much bigger than in real life), my old bordingschool and some various other areas had become this zoo. In a way it was more like a fortress where the animals were locked up at night. As I love animals, I wanted to do something for them, so me and a couple of others decided that we were gonna set them free. And we did, I crawled through narrow spaces to open all the doors. I released every single animal except the huge rhinoserus, he just wasn't a very happy fellow. I felt bad for him but I knew he would be really aggressive towards the other animals. I had now let mokeys, birds, tigers, elefants, polar bears and a lot of other animals out. A pair of birds were my companions during this day, they were very nice following me around. All sudden me and my friends realised we had to put all the other animals back into their cages because some important person would find out, I'm not sure what would happen if we didn't. So the chase began! Hahaha, it was a sight indeed! We ran into many problems but as far as i remember it went pretty well. The tiger was very nice by the way. I also enjoyed the polar bear babies a lot hehe. The two birds who were following me were in the end of the day mysteriousley smaller and belonged to another species, but that wasn't anything out of the ordinary in my dream! This is pretty much what I remember about this dream, but I also dreamt something about a family (at least I think it was) who were dressed up as characters from Pippi Longstocking and they were all going to swim across a lake, but only a couple of meters each. But the person who was swimming were also carrying a par of twins. Anyway this was all very weird, and what do you know, I was checking google a while ago and it's Pippi Longstocking's 65th "birthday". Ah well, I better get on with my math hehe.

Good night world!

Where's the love?

As the Black eyed peas sing in one of their songs, where's the love? I guess I do need somebody to love, I both need to give and receive love. For about 12 years I had my beloved dog beside me and even when the world showed it's dark side he was always there for me. The past 3 years I even had the love and support from someone who is very important to me. Unfortunately we decided to end our relationship, but I guess that was meant to be then. We're still friends, but it kind of hurt to think back. I found a piece of a conversation that I saved from our first year together:

D - How do you say I love you in Swedish?
V - Jag älskar dig.
V - D...
D - Yeah?
V - Jag älskar dig!
D - I love you too!

We talked about it about a year later.
I asked him if he remembered.

D - Yeah, I remember that. It was a great moment...
V - Yeah...
D - V...
V - Yeah?
D - I love youuuuuuu!!!
V - I love you tooooo!!!
D - So I'm the happiest guy in the world!
V - And I'm the happiest girl in the universe!
V - D...D - Yeah darling?
V - Jag älskar dig!
D - Jag älskar dig tooooo! Hehe
D - How do you say too in Swedish?
V - Också
D - Jag älskar dig också!
V - Awwww

Even though these words make me smile, I guess I have to let go. I have plenty of love in me and I really do need to share it with someone. I tried, I dated a guy for a short period of time, but it led to no more than a couple of kisses before we realised that we weren't meant for each other. We just didn't click. To click with someone can only be understood by someone who has done that, and I wonder how many times in life you can do that. Is there a certain amount of clicks? I guess only time will tell...

Swirling snow

If I turn my head I can see the snowflakes dance in the wind. So soft but yet so aggressive. I'm sitting here listening to Whiskey Lullaby with Brad Paisley and Allison Krauss, and it surely makes me emotional. It's one of the most beautiful and sad songs I know.

Well, I guess I'm gonna go check if my friend Yin is awake, we were planing to go see the new Harry Potter movie =)

Here we go again

Me, the queen of blogs who are left to their own fate. But I guess there's no better time than now to start this all over again. My life have recently contained a lot of closures and maybe I should give this one more try. I have no school, no job, no boyfriend, no dog... In a way it feels like I have nothing, but then I realise that I still have some of the most important things; family, friends, happiness and dreams!

Just two days ago I even took up poetry again! Maybe I'm trying to find myself even though I didn't know I was lost? Well I'm ready. Whatever life brings at the moment I'll take it on. So it goes.